My church has a very special ministry to single moms.
It was developed by a lady in our church that suddenly and unexpectedly found herself as a single mom after many years of marriage. She's become a good friend to me in this past year and it's amazing to talk to her and hear about the journey of healing and acceptance that God has brought her through with the difficult end of her marriage to divorce.
She explains that one day she just decided that while she could spend the rest of her life hoping (and that is okay)...she had to spend today-living. She believes like I do that to "help" is to "heal" and so she began our "Mosaic Ministry" to single moms and we do a big lunch for them along with other things once a month.
I first learned of this ministry through my friend Anne who came to have a heart for it through difficult times of her own and she put me on the list to bring food. This "list calling" business that she is in charge of REALLY need re-evaluated for better success and since I've come from the church whose motto was "How can we do that better??" (AH!), I bull dozed my way in and made some revisions! They may or may not work, but I had to do something for my poor friend!
One of the things we do now is feature a "Mom of the Month". I interviewed this month's mom this morning and my heart broke for her as she told of the trials that she faces and the loneliness that comes with parenting without a companion. But, don't you worry! She bounced back from those comments with a fierceness about a love for God and a contentment in His companionship that I think only few people accept and enjoy in their life.
My heart has been softened to these women because of my good friend that surprisingly and for the time being, finds herself in a similar place. The stories are not the same but that "fierceness" was very familiar to me. I'm thankful that God has kept my marriage together but I envy, a little, that place that my friend and so many others have emerged from with a closeness to our Savior and friendship with God that puzzles me.
So, I've been asked to attend the luncheon this Sunday and talk with the single moms about what has drawn my heart towards them.
You will be the answer to that question, San. You are in a fiery trial but your refining has reached much further than you could ever have expected. I know that it is easy to spend your time focusing on who is not changing but I'd hate for you to miss the MANY of us that truly are.
I guess when God leads us along...you never know how far you may go.